I can't do this anymore. It's overwhelming. My heart aches so bad I'm sick. All I want to do is cut, some physical pain that will ease what's going on inside. My insides are a mess, I'm a mess. It's one of those moments when you pray that someone will call but no one does. I'm just trying to stay upstairs because the razors are downstairs, and if I go down there I'm going to cut. I'm such a drama queen