My dearest Jacob,

I miss you every second of every day, but today the abandoned misery can't be circumvent. I scream with the pained animalistic gurggle of a tourmented soul for which there is no healing. Oh how I wish I could call back the peace, the laughter, the solace of your present strength and faith. My weaknesses are magnified in your absence, a burden I shoulder alone. There is no repentance for my sin of letting you go, no restitution can be made. I am totally and completely alone, with a void that can only be filled by you.

-C

I wonder what makes her so amazing, so lovable, so much better than me.  

I also wonder when I'll find the replacement, the one that fully makes me forget.  The one who makes this all better.  The one who can help me find my smile.